Valley of Fire

Nate and I just got back from a fun trip to Valley of Fire. Such a simple place but it is close by and we don't have much time to leave town, so it worked out great. We brought Vanessa so it was her first camping trip and she did so good! She's so cute! Snuggled in my sleeping bag, was polite to other campers, that fearless, little mountaineer. I love going camping with Nate because he takes such good care of me and is always so prepared. I always know I will be comfortable and when I want to come home we can. 

Friday night we went on two hikes and then made cheeseburgers, listened to the BYU basketball game a bit, and then had smores. We watched Secretariat. The weather was great. Just a really nice day overall.

This morning we did a few more little hikes and then came home. We were home and clean by noon and it was just such a nice trip. We slept all afternoon and little puppy is still exhausted. Thank goodness for spring break. 

Is it May yet?

The grocery shopping is finally done,
A task to me that is not fun.
The oil's changed, my lesson's planned,
This Saturday was not that grand.

These tasks mundane, and far from great
Lead me to appreciate
The food I have and car that drives,
The chance to bless some peoples' lives.

But there is one thing on my mind,
It bothers me, that I'm not kind.
With time for everyone but me,
Nate has so much charity.

So starving for attention I,
Selfishly let time waste by.
Until the day of rest arrives,
Where we do not have separate lives.

Although I drag my feet and whine,
I am really doing fine.
Just overwhelmed with what's ahead,
I think, for me, it's time for bed.

Trophy Husband

Nate is going to get a huge trophy when he gets to heaven. He puts up with a lot. But this is not just a one sided tolerance, you see there are a few things I endure as well. So lately, I have been grumpy, and lazy and tired. I have not wanted to make dinner (though the last two nights I did accomplish such a feat), I complain, and whine, and lay around while Nate takes Vanessa one walks and cheerfully goes about his ways.

But today. Oh my goodness. This cheerful, cute, nice, sincere adorable husband that I have came in while I was sleeping on the couch. He goes and makes himself a lunch, and then sits down and starts stirring strawberry syrup into his milk. Oh my gosh.... he was so loud! Just clinking the spoon against the sides of the glass over and over again.... FOR LIKE 10 MINUTES! I was so angry. Then, he leaves his dishes in the sink, and says it was because he didn't want to wake me up. RIGHT....

I tell Nate every day that I am going to go to the store and buy some food. I never do. I always intend to though. I am sincere in my intent though my statements usually end up being lies. He lets me whine to him and is always so happy and nice. He lets be be lazy and never judges me. He is such a good husband. I have no idea why he likes me. Our dating history should have driven him away, but he stuck around. Let's see if he can handle the next few months. Yikes.

Argh!!!

I want to vent right now. But I can't really, because I don't want to complain. But gosh!!! I am so not happy right now! Yes I know I have a wonderful life, a great husband and puppy, a great job ect... but sheesh! I am so depressed right now! There are a few reasons for this, but mostly I feel very deeply sad because my mom left today. I have been super sick lately so my mom helped me drive back from CA. And she basically did everything for me the last 3 days and I was so in control and happy and calm. And now! She is gone and I feel like my world is falling apart. A little dramatic I know, but that is how I feel.

I want to be done with school. Yes done! I am ready to move on, but things are out of my control, and just slowly creeping along. I am tired of being by myself all day everyday and never getting to sleep with or even talk to my husband. I am tired of always cleaning and doing laundry and doing everything I am suppose to do. It is neverending, and I know that is just life, but I am exhausted.  I am mustering up all of my energy right now just to go and return a redbox movie that my mom and I rented last night. Help!! =(